Life !!

What is LIFE? What kind of LIFE do I need / want?

I been asking this Q for now and then.. Yet couldn't get any answer...

A need/want really depends on individual and yet will vary from time to time... this is LIFE stage/circle... When at certain level of LIFE, then need/want will be different...

Previously, before I'm attached, I know what I want.. I can control everything... how to enjoy my LIFE.. Now I'm in relationship.. everything different.. How different? When in relationship, cconsideration is from two parties [me and him].. decision - should be come from two parties [me and him] but sometimes only one party concern... due to time constraint..

When the relationship grew stronger and more stable.. its goes to another level... whereby Marriage take place.. then two families involve... why must involve two families? because SHE and HE do have own burden which need to bear for their own family.. how to share all these between HE and SHE.. that's really matter..

That's why i always asking myself whether I'm ready?

I'm looking at other people, that, working so hard and whole life only to pay debts.. Housing loan / car loan / credit card loan / whatever loan... working so hard just enough to survive or raising a family.. why? why we live in this world for DEBTS? why seems we working for DEBTS? That's LIFE (many people said)... why we want to be a slave for MONEY?

Anyway... Enjoy whatever you do now is most important...

Healthy Soup !!

Doesnt feel want to eat anything but only SOUP in my mind... lazy me sure pick those easy to prepare and cook... why not ABC? hehehe... I love carrot.. so but dont like potato in this way.. anyway... just put more carrot and less potato lo.. hehehe..

I'm a soup lover.. probably train since young.. my mom will force us to drink a very big bowl of soup... so here am I... a SOUP LOVER....

Presenting a home based soup without MSG and no added salt for flavouring.. hehehe.. tasty...

Finally my turn to fall "SICK"

"U" been sick for almost a week... slowly in the recovering process.. really feel myself a real failure.. unable to take care "U".. dont even mention unable to see "U".. I only able to remind you to take care.. take wisely on your food consumption.... haihzz... I really miss "U".. we been apart day by day and I dont even wish to think back how long already.... Dear.. wish Ms. Healthy will follow you all the time..

Finally, my turn to fall sick.. just a little headache and fever due to rain.. really scare to have fever as I dont like "COLD + HOT" feeling... dont know its hot or cold.. and my forehead very heaty.. I'm trying my best not to fall down.. but unfortunately.. unable to stand it.. I know "U" will be worry about me if i fall sick.. at this moment.. just take care.. and recover soon...

The sick of "U"

"U" fall sick terribly for the first time..

I feel really sorry coz unable to take care "U" or even by at your side... But I know "U" will be taking care well by your mother.. This is how lucky that can be at home which outstation people like me unable to experience it...

I only can remind "U" to take your medicine on time... take your food wisely..

Dear.. I'm sorry.. "U" need to take care of yourself..

Get well soon...

My next step would be.....

Unsure of my next step... Feeling insecure now..

Why I got such feeling? It is really matter? Why it really that matter?

Haihzz...

No matter what, I still need to face the reality...

What should I do to improve the condition?

I'm BLUR...

I need full REST and a real RECHARGE...
I need a guide....

I wont give up... will go through it.. will will will..

Gambateh !!!