Promotion !!

Congratulation !! I'm promoted... This is second time promotion in my life.. but 1st one in this company..

Not really a big title.. just from Executive to Senior Executive... As i'm a team leader of the system Training and Development team... I'm with this company for about 1 1/2.. and when I first join for this job.. I'm joined as zero knowledge towards everything... I'm not from IT background, zero knowledge on public speaking and dont even say about training...

I learn.. My "willing to learn" and "not calculative" attitude bring me until this far... Hopefully there will be a far far far more than this.. Suppose may be can go to AM this time.. but yet.. may be I'm not prepared well for it.. so gambateh...

Very happy and I'm proud of it.. Can be a team leader in not my expertise field... This promotion really give me a big motivation.. for me to continue to do the best...

I'm going to think of how to celebrate it.. its going be a very big treat for myself this year end.. hehehe...

"Am I that lebih?"

This was posted at "UR" facebook... I know what it mean..

Since I'm "in relationship".. I really dunno how to balance between "U" and she.. why cant both of you have fun together? must be one of you giving me the face? I really tired in between... REALLY TIRED.... I'm trying my best to balance it..

She said I got no time for her?... "U" said why cant she be independant and let us have more privacy? how can I pleased both of you? Both also important for me !!!

Before this, she is some sort my another half.. whatever we do, wherever we go.. we together... she got very less frenz and can said almost zero.. and same to me 2... she accompany me .. i accompany she... Since i'm attached.. i less talk to her.. dunno why she give me SHIT face... I'm patiently talk to her.. patient take all her shit face...

Same goes to "U".. whenever we three together.. I really dunno why we three cant walk together? talk thing together? must be either "U" or she give me hard time.. you both really testing my patient.. I really trying my best to cope this situation.. I really dunno how already?

How? I'm in the middle... where should i stand?

Am I wrong being "in a relationship"? Am I wrong being a good sister? Am I wrong?

God damn !! what should I do?

Beside this, you always said i didn't share things to you... sometimes, those topic just brought out like that... without a second thought... communication is involve both parties.. not just because one person want to tell.. then the conversation can goes on...

I just want to enjoy my life without worry... I just want a simple life only.. simple till anything also can.. Why just cant? why? why couple must argue this and that? why be in relationship must think this and that? Am i that stupid asking this kind of question? why cant just happy happy and happy everyday?

One thing for sure is.. I really glad i met "U" [as happy as I started blog about "U"].. I really do hope we can work this relationship out and be forever... I told "U" before.. we are happy couple.. dont because of small small stupid things. make it worst...

I LOVE U...

p/s : previously I can blog it freely about my feeling.. when in relationship.. i cant blog it freely as i know "U" goin to read it.. I only blog most of the happy things or put it as private blog.. but this one I really wish to publish it... if anything i said wrong.. I'm sorry...

Mom - U r everything !!

My mother is a very important person either at her family or my father side family.. She is the "KEY" when there is any function especially "BIG" function like wedding, Ching Ming, all kind of "GOD" festival and etc etc... She knows most of the tradition and how the ceremony goes...

Since last year June (2009), she not getting well.. me and my little sister preparing all these praying things with her guideline.. Everything goes simple.. even though we want to be as normal but with her guideline and we both are beginner, SIMPLE is what we can do.. Of course there some little things will be miss out and all goes will "kelam kabut" but important is we do have the "HEART".. so hopefully that will be added "MARKS"...

I'm not a really religious person as I only follow what my family did.. I believe if i didn't do anything wrong and do good to everyone then i'm done.. Religion for me is just a guideline in life to be a better person... But i definitely respect all kind of religion as I believe it will teach us BETTER...

The experience of preparing those praying ceremony things really somethings.. I'm enjoying it.. especially seeing those different kind of praying materials.. I'm a bit keen to know what is that for? why need that? etc etc...

Every year Ching Ming, my mom will be the person preparing "ALL" the things... I'm just assist her only... This year, due to my mom condition, I thought she will leave it all to the other family but yet still she need to handle some of the things... I know her well, from previous year experience, she will miss out many things.. This year, I want to make sure nothing miss out like previous year... but my mom double confirm me - no need double check as everything same as last year... Unfortunately, more things miss out this year... This year CHING MING not a good day for me.. I'm being shooting from few angles, pointing that I'm not doing better.. a Question throw at me "without ur mom, u already kelam kabut?"

That time, I'm really speechless.. how am I going to defend? I dont want to create argument.. So i just bla bla bla myself... I'm just can keep it to myself... huh !! Me and my sister is the youngest among all.. why should we bear this responsibility? why not those elder brothers with family?? If there is a chance next year.. I definitely will do the best...